Yep, Diabetes UK were happy for me to video blog a second time. Apparently there’s a market for my waffle!
The latest ‘episode’ (Jennyenders anyone?) focuses on being diagnosed. Possibly the scariest, most confusing and most daunting period for any diabetic. I mean, this condition doesn’t politely knock on your door, bunch of flowers in hand to soften the blow and ask to enter your life. No, it’s more like an articulated lorry crashing through your living room on an idle Tuesday morning while you’re having a cheeky brew and indulging in a bit of Holly and Phil. It’s not pretty, and there’s a whole lot of mess to clear up afterwards (I’m not still talking about This Morning).
So with this video blog (refusing to use ‘vlog’ here!) I vowed to be honest, because quite frankly it was terrifying – although more so for my parents than me I would think. I was just an eight-year-old who was wondering when they would finish talking about all this stuff I didn’t really understand so that I could go out and play. What eight-year-old can understand the gravity of a life-long illness that they’d never even heard of 20 minutes ago? I blogged in some detail about my diagnosis a couple of years ago, when this blog was a mere fledging gathering of Type 1 related thoughts, and to this day it’s one of my most serious and most honest posts (don’t worry – there’s still a few Gary Barlow references in there, although it’s well before the days of an animal impression).
What I’m trying to get across on both counts is that landing with this disease is overwhelming to the point that I don’t think you can really understand what it means, at least at first – although maybe that’s ignorant of me to say. Hell, I didn’t understand the gravity of it 10 years later, when I went to uni and treated my body so badly I was scared into submission with the threat of going blind. We all have to get there in our own time, in our own way. And I’d just like to put it out there that I no longer pee myself. Just in case Gary’s reading this. Watch the video, it will all become clear…